oh god. im in the state where no one can save me anymore.

i look at our pictures and then i look at theirs. I'm not even sure what i want now. If only there are sign of the future.

Ugh. i need some alone time. BF is sleeping and not answering call. Gfs are busy with work/school. I have lost all my contact(cursing&swearingwhoevertook myhp!!). I feel so naked now. Dad has changed his number. this is just great. no more extra moolahs.

And to think of it i made plan for today thinking of surprising him..

*inhale exhale inhale exhale....

life is so unpredictable. And its raining. Great...